For a few weeks now, I have committed to practicing meditation at least once a day. And it’s making a huge difference. Sometimes I listen to online meditations (it’s amazing what you can get for free), sometimes I don’t have anything on. I love to do womb meditations, imagining my head and shoulders as a big leafy tree, my torso and belly the trunk, and roots coming down through my vagina into the very centre of the Earth herself. It’s really helping me to stay grounded, and move through the different moods and emotions that arise throughout the day.
Before writing this I thought “What’s the point? Nobody cares about your meditation. Why do you even bother?”, but I let that voice do its thing, politely declined its invitation to follow her into the hole of self-doubt and paralysis, and wrote away anyway. I credit this to my meditation practice. The more I meditate, the deeper the meditations, and the more I want to meditate. I crave it even. Sometimes all is happening is lots of chatter, but I remind myself that the act of sitting down and the intention to meditate is powerful in itself.
Now I need to plan my week ahead. What do I want to accomplish this week? How do I want to structure it? I find this very difficult indeed. Being self-employed isn’t always easy. Whenever I have been at school, it being Uni or before that, I can flourish within the structure, excel even. But as soon as the structure was gone, I flopped and melted. I have decided to get a business coach for creatives, in part because I feel I really need the accountability it offers, deadlines to stick to, someone to report to, who can hold me to account. It starts on Friday. In the meantime, let’s create a week’s schedule! Til next time.